To where we are -Part 2

For our sophomore year John's dad who is a teacher was moved to another town  3 hours away. I was devastated. The  Jerk had already moved on, and I had my eye set on an 8th grader. I know it sounds weird, but since I was really smart, I was 2 years ahead of my actual class, so he was actually my age, and quite smart I may add. I wanted him, so I went and got him, our "love" lasted 7 months and then I just got sick, again being in a relationship isn't or wasn't for me. But I really enjoyed our time together and until today we remain very close friends. He is actually texting me as I write (but that's another story).


Junior year and I wanted to have something else, so I dated this guy from John's new town, he was chubby, but cute as hell and super sweet, he actually sent me flowers to school for my birthday with a ton of cut out papers that said "I love you" that freaked me out and a couple of months into the relationship we just stopped talking. And then he assumed he broke up with me, even though it was the other way around. I guess I ain't no sucker for love. His current gf has put me through so much drama you wouldn't believe, she thinks Im still in love with him and I want to get back together which is the craziest idea ever considering I don't even see him anymore or talk to him.

So after him I haven't been in a relationship, except for the occasional hookup. I know is sad, I'm a grown woman, and I can't seem to find a good guy, don't get me wrong even though I've gotten a lil heavier, Im still an attractive gal, and I get asked out a lot.

I'll share with you more of my weird love life, from the guy to whom I'm the love of his life and we've never dated, to John who's become my best friend and I'm still crushing on, and Joshua my ex who Im still close to and we flirt all the time.

I know it will be hard, but as long as I see light, I'll keep hunting for the ONE!

To where we stand- Part 1

Im in my early 20's and I've never had a real boyfriend! (I know it sounds horrifying) but my love life didn't use to be so lame. It all started back in kinder garden, the first day of class I came home telling my dad how cute this kid was, ever since I've had a thing for men. BTW I was 3 years old. 

Then came elementary. I was not the shy nerdy type, oh no, I was the loud, outgoing, smart, rebel, but with awesome grades. I didn't like to play with girls much because they would try to control me and it really pissed me off, so I hanged with the boys. Second grade, the BEST year ever!! I met the guy who I'm currently crushing on. He was perfect and we bonded inmediatly he lived nearby and he would come to play but my parents got sick of our playdates and he just stopped coming .

 I survived, crushing on a new guy every single year, until 8th grade, when I crushed again on my second grade crush, whom for the purposes of this blog, we shall call John. Someone dared me to kiss him, and so I did, my first kiss and  with the guy I liked. Amazing. But it didnt took me long enough to realize he didnt liked me as much. So I went on and started dating the class jerk. I have to say I was pretty HOT! I know is not the modest thing to say but I was damn it ! 

The summer only made me hotter, and when it was finally time for HS, I was the hottest freshman, all seniors wanted to date me, and so I went on and tried to date one, but as the free spirit that I am, the whole girlfriend thing wasn't for me, so our attempt at dating lasted for 2 weeks, and the I went back to the arms of the JERK! one of the greatest summers of my life I must say, the Jerk was an amazing teacher. But I was still feeling it for John.